It is hard to trust others
But the hardest thing to do is to believe in you.
I wanted to see your smile and your laugh
Like you used to be.
So now hold me close in your arms
Don’t ever let go.
Together we will walk and see wonderful things
I will put colors into your mono world
I will put away your sorrow
And I will shush darkness around you.
Now I’m here
With you.
I am not your favorite girl
Even I put my best effort to make your smile
I will never beat your other girls
As you always put them first before me
You remember their birthday instead of me
You can talk about them all day long
You know their favorite food
I should know by now
I am not your favorite girl
Never will
Never be.
Start
Where I am right now
With my barefoot trying to walk
Fully conscious but heartless.
Pause
The moment where my heart shattered into dust
Then I can gently put on the ground
Before it disappear into the black hole.
Rewind
All those tales that been mossy in my head
And I can throw it out one by one
To crystallize my brain for new spectrum.
Stop
Before proceed to the next station
Touch every element that makes my adrenaline boost up
Even it is only rotten branches.
Start.Pause.Rewind.Stop
All over again and again
Until I find my soul again.
Hilang
Hilang yang tak mungkin kembali lagi.
Lenyap
Lenyap yang tak mungkin kembali lagi.
Pergi
Pergi yang tak mungkin kembali lagi.
Kau
Hilang. Lenyap. Pergi.
Dan tak mungkin kembali.
Jasad bersatu dengan alam
Roh bersatu dengan Yang Esa
Yang tinggal hanya memori
Dan itu hidup pada mereka yang kasih dan rindukan engkau.
Kau hilang.
Kau lenyap.
Kau pergi.
Dariku dan aku rindukanmu.
I wrote this poem a few months back when missing my late granddad and suddenly it turned out a song. My very own first song. Under a tree with my Hoshi on a sunny day, I put a melody into it, something that I never thought me capable of doing it.
A moment ago
A mother holding her child’s hand crossing the street
A thief broke into grocery shop
A young man got hit by a lorry that runs over into red light
A PHD student entitled Dr. due to good result in final assessment
A father lost his son due to cancer
A worker got promoted over poor job
A mendicant was caught and brought to city hall
An octopus received millions of death thread
A composer lost her touch to produce great melodies
A teacher punished her student over cheating in exam
A sales person sold one old vintage Beetle car
A sex scandal gets much attraction than poverty
A random person throws rubbish across the road
A neighbor got bang over his head for being honest
A young lady left her newborn child at mosque’s doorsteps
A culprit received honor award from higher authority
A hunter killed a polar bear over its off-white skin
A moment ago
Me still sit on this table eating chicken fried rice with empty seat beside me.
Care to join?